this kid is awesome

Tue, 10 May 2005 06:05:40 GMT

So yeah, I can't sleep. Too many things going through my head right now, its the end of the year, two more days and two more finals till I'm done! I've got to think about what to do about these exams. One should be okay, one is probably going to be horrible. I have been to class twice since Spring break. Horrible, horrible idea, but eh, I would have probably just spent my time in class sleeping, dazed out, or doodling. So yeah, tomorrow I want to do a lot, which includes running, eating, and studying. Those three things are all I want to do, they are all I must do. The gym is closed this week so I figure running is a decent substitute. I am finally over my ridiculious illness, so I feel like I can do anything, I went to the gym for like a week and a half though, then it closed =(

Anyway, I was trying to sleep before, but that wasn't working out so well. My mind is wandering like crazy from one thing to another, and it's very hard to fall asleep when you are constantly thinking about things. It happens quite often. I find that it usually helps ease my mind to write down my thoughts, so that is what I am going to do. Though, not to the full extent of what I normally do because I usually write just about anything and everything, but being that this is the 'online' journal, it shall have to be censored. Moving on, I was thinking about why people do certain things and why they don't do them. Particularly when someone doesn't do something they know is right. I can find so many examples in myself, I think everyone can. Little things, big things, all types of things, whether it's sticking to a diet or studying for a big test. And moreover, I really don't like when people complain about things they have the power to change. That seems totally preposterous to me. If one has the power to make a change for the better, than DO IT! I think a lot of people complain because they are looking for help from other people to step in and do something for them because they feel they are too weak to make such changes themselves. I also believe that when someone does this and is obliged by another to help, they take away the real satisfaction of accomplishment. I think this can lead to dependency on others and the incapability of helping yourself. Now, this is separate, but is also related to not doing something you know is right. I was kinda just going off on dependency there for a second, but it is related.

Yeah, I am also really tired, so I don't feel like relating the two together right now, so I'll just go on with what I was going to say. Yes, not doing something you know is right. I think laziness or insincerity to oneself is very interesting. No matter how much you want to do something, and set your mind to do something, there is always those moments when you think twice, and are challenged by obstacles. Around every corner you have to make the choice, so not only the first time you set your mind to do it, but you actually have to make that choice over and over again. That is where most people get caught. Most people think that, "Of, if I do this thing correct now, I can slack off later" I am a victim of it too, especially with working out, eating, or even mackin it with ladies. =D Its often difficult to stay on track with these things, and it bothers me whenever I see myself, or someone else getting off track through whatever obstacles lay in the way. I guess the message for the day is to just suck it up and do it, because you only live once, and you really can't afford to fuck things up.

GAH

Mon, 25 Apr 2005 06:58:35 GMT

SoOoooOoOOoOOo tired!!! I don't know why I can't fall asleep. I've had such an intense weekend too... well, compared to the past few weeks. Oh, I don't get this at all. I'm setting my alarm clock for tomorrow morning, so hopefully waking up early tomorrow combined with going to sleep late tonight will make me able to fall asleep tomorrow night. So yeah, I'm finally starting to feel better though, stopped coughing and all that, don't have a fever, don't feel groggy during the day =) All very good. Went to the gym yesterday with Adam and Barry, had a nice workout. Today I went with just Adam cuz Barry was shot from deadlifts yesterday. I feel awesome now, I worked out my abs both days, and their sooo sore. Feels awesome ha! Gotta get that hardcore six pack for summerrrr. Summer is so close, I can feel it. It's going to be so amazing. 3 more weeks, just 3 more weeks. Hrmm maybe listening to pure moods would help. Yeah I totally just downloaded some of that..

So many things I want to do. So many things I wanted to do.

So crazy

Fri, 01 Apr 2005 01:29:24 GMT

I'm back in Binghamton now. I have been for a few days now. The ride up was soo crazy, we left at 3:30 and got in at 9. It was pretty cruel, and the rain kept comming down soo hard. It was really hard to see. I just have to say that I'm glad I wasn't the one who was driving. I totally would have gone off the road into a ditch or something. The rain was comming down so hard, the wipers weren't doing anything. Oh well, we made it back safe, and all was well. It wasn't too bad of a ride up, my cousin Frank and I were talking most of the time anyway, so that took our minds off how long the ride was.

I havent't had any real classes all week! I slept through Egyptian art because I wasn't feeling too well (I have a sore throat). High middle ages the professor and TA's never showed up, so we all just left, and both my english lecture and discussion were let out like 10 minutes into class. It has been sawweeeettt! Wednesday was really awesome, the weather was great, and I got to meet a few people and play frisbee for a while. It felt great, even though I am kinda feeling weird and offbalance b/c of the sickness and probably from dosin up on Dayquil/nyquil. (I rarely take medicine) In the past few days I've been reading Terry Goodkind. I forgot how awesome it is once you get into it. Its so great. And on that note, I'll be getting back to that.

"Your life is yours alone... rise up and live it!"

To the cool people,

Wed, 23 Mar 2005 07:25:19 GMT

I've been home for a few days now. Home is nice, I like seeing all the people, just lounging around, eating food, all of that good stuff. I had a pretty big party on Saturday, which I'd say was a lot of fun =) I got to hang out with a lot of cool people whom I havent seen in a really long time, which was great. The past 6 or so days have been pretty awesome. A lot of partyin hehe. Been hanging out with people every night, which is what it's all about. Ah, I love sitting/laying in the loveseat down here in the basement, I had forgotten how comfortable it is. People seats are good too! I finally got around to buying Boondock Saints and Virgin Suicides. Ah this break has been great so far, and it keeps getting better. My truck was overheating yesterday, so i brought it to the shop, and fortunatly it was just a broken coolant tube. So yeah, now I need money, so I'm going to get to sleep and see if I can work tommorrow and earn a few bucks. I'm running on empty, with 6 bucks in my wallet =/ I'm also reaaallly tired!!!

Whoah

Mon, 14 Mar 2005 20:46:00 GMT

Damn what a crazy week/weekend. I drank wednesday, thursday, friday, and unfortunatly saturday. Got drunk on Wednesday, THursday and Friday was just kinda feel good. Saturday I was obliterated. I've never been like that ever. At least from what I hear I didn't do anything deplorable, but I totally blacked out. I don't remember anything except for walking into the bar, saying hi to people, and then getting crazy sick. Haha, well at least I got to see kait before I was bombed. We pregamed a bit in the room, and I got to walk with her to n from sue's room, which was nice. And I'm alive right now, I'm very thankful for that haha. I've never been like that ever before... rediculious. Haha I woke up on Sunday feeling sooo bad. I saw Genesis in the hall and he was like, "Yo son, u waz mad twisted last night!!" Then I saw Tonz a little later and he said "Hey man, you hungover?, I saw you in the rat and some guy was holding you up because you were stumbling all over the place." And I don't remember anything. Boy oh boy..least now I can say that I've been that drunk.. I've been bad before... but never anything close to that hah. I've never not remembered like a block of two hours. Well, ya live and learn. =)

ahhh

Mon, 21 Feb 2005 15:22:20 GMT

It has been an interesting weekend. I managed to spill $60 this weekend. Oh well, I guess I had to pay off my debts to the mob and stuff, and those sorts of things are expensive. Thursday night was a let down. Friday night was pretty awesome though, which more than compensated. I went out with Pete and his crew, which was pretty crazy. I wore that snappy white shirt that Sheila, Jackie, Jeff, and I picked out, it worked out well I believe. Saturday was less fun, less ladies at the bar, yet more rejection, but it was all good. I wasn't the only one haha. And finally, last night the bathrooms overflowed like crazy cuz someone like put a shirt in a toilet or something, and the whole hall flooded. It leaked down to the first floor! It was crazy, we had to barricade the door with towels so the water wouldnt come in. Some kid slip n slided down the hall. Pretty dirty if you ask me, but it looked mad fun. Anywho.. dum da dum dum. I shaved my beard today. Little change of pace for a while. It feels really neat. =)

PIRATES!

Tue, 01 Feb 2005 22:38:37 GMT

Oh yeah, and I had a really awesome dream about pirates last night. It was really cool!

It was damn nice today

Tue, 01 Feb 2005 22:17:52 GMT

Today was really nice. Even though I practically did nothing. Woke up at 11, because I figured there was nothing for me to do before then. Went to the gym. Had a great workout, first time I had ben to the gym with Adam in a while, like me and him spotting eachother and stuff. We got to do some bench which was good for both of us, since we were so rusty. I started a new routine, did chest and bicepts today, the whole time, which was really good. Everything was paced really well, and it was the first time I felt my muscles burningin a while. Anyway, the walk there was a little frigid, but the walk back was uber nice. Weather was still slightly cold, probably around 30, but their wasnt any wind chill, so it made it real nice, and I saw the sun. We haven't had a great deal of sun in a while. The room was really warm from the sunlight, so warm that we opened a window. You feel really great when you can open a window in the winter. A lot of the snow is melting, though I heard it might snow or rain again tomorrow. It is supposed to be in the 30's for the next week or so, which is inspiring. Maybe I'll even get the guts to do some running.

I had a little party on Friday night... hrmm I think it was Friday. Anyway, it was nice, played kings, Adam, Alison, Barry, Brad, Pat, Tom and I just chilled in the room and got silly and talked. We gave up on Kings pretty fast, and played eh... Fire and Ice? Instead, which was an interesting game. Anyways yeah, nothing else is going on. Haha, I hope you all are having nice lives.

SO HYPER ALWAYS.... AND BORED! MWAHAHAHAHAH COME VISIT!!!!!!

SNOWWW!

Mon, 24 Jan 2005 22:13:39 GMT

Oh wow, their is so much snow! It has been snowing for the better part of the past three days. In total here and SUNY Bing we have about a foot, maybe a foot and a half. Its hard to tell because of all the plowing and hills. The snow is pretty boring... There is nothing to do when theirs this much snow on the ground. All I have been doing is working out... because it's the only thing I can do, but that's good though. Tom and I have also been walking all over the place, because we've been bored, with nothing to do. Though, yesterday and today have been much better than Friday and Saturday were.

Friday and Saturday we played cards a lot. I won a pretty nice game, I won and knocked everyone out haha. Go figure. Last night Alison and Chuck came over and they taught Tom and I how to play Spades, which was pretty fun. Today classes went swimmingly. All my professors seem cool, and I know people in every class, so, yeah they should be good. Their all so laid back, it's very nice.

I am really enjoying this eating six meals a day thing. I tried to do it over the summer, but eh that just didn't work out with my work schedule and everything going on. Now, it is very easy to maintain. I've been doing it for around two weeks now. Six steady, even meals a day. Slightly smaller than the average meal. That combined with going to the gym every other day and working out in my room at night and, basically whenever I am bored, is really great. I am finally getting that tired, strained feeling in my muscles again, which is a nice change from being on a plateau for so long. I'm also pretty happy because in the past few weeks over break, I gained most of the muscle back that I lost during first semester. It's nice going to the gym here and picking up the big weights! I've been doing around 100 push ups every day since I've been up at school as well. I wish that I could run too, but I don't have the running skill required to not fall on the slippery snow. Oh well, it is just going to have to be mainly upper body for the next few weeks.

The weather report said it is going to be snowing on and off till Thursday :-( Oh well!

Thursday

Wed, 19 Jan 2005 06:51:27 GMT

All right, I found out from Sheila what happened on Thursday. which was that Sheila, Emily, and Jeff came over and we all just chilled and talked and stuff for a while. It was good. Ha, Yeah so.. yeah its been a busy few days. Sheila and Sara came over tonight and we watched Swingers. They think it's money. Cuz it is.

Great Weekend

Wed, 19 Jan 2005 01:09:48 GMT

Well, last weekend was probably one of the best I've had. Ha, I've been in such a Sonic mood lately. Ever since Justine's party where Dave, Willy, Nick, myself, and others were imitating some of the theme songs to different levels. Man, those songs brought me back in time! I remember sitting cross legged sitting in front of the tv, like 2 feet away, with my neck cranked back and just playing Sonic 1 and 2 all the time on my Genesis (original baby, yeah that thing was like the biggest system ever.) Anyway, last Thursday, I had such a craving for the real versions of these songs, not just the ones playing in my head, that I actually found a site that has them all!
http://www.planetdreamcast.com/sonic/listen/index.shtml if you're interested hehe. Anyway, I'm listening to the Casino Night theme at the moment. These songs make me feel so money.

Yeah, so that was the first great day of the weekend. Well, actually I am considering the weekend starting as of last Tuesday, when Dave and Taryn came over for some Mortal Kombat mayhem! Haha, I love you guys. Then, on Wednesday, as I described in a previous post, a bunch of people came over for some more movies, which was also great. I don't remember what I did on Thursday besides getting the Sonic songs.. haha I hope I'm not like forgetting something cool! Anyway, Friday was amazing.

Friday night, so good. I think twenty people showed up in all, which is what I was expecting, and the girl to guy ratio was great haha. I think it was like 12 to 8 or something, which was really refreshing, considering most parties I've been to are basically a sausage fest. I got to see a lot of people on Friday that I hadn't seen in so long, like Allison and Gina, ha the last time I saw them was like... almost high school! Well, it was probably more like Sheila's party.. but that was still a very long time ago. I also hadn't seen Walsh, Scharon and Rob in forever. Man, I forgot how awesome they are. But seeing everyone was great, it really was. Ah yeah, and I discovered how to make THE DIP from Jeff, haha it's awesome. "Oh man, you guys made the dip!" ha.

Saturday was pretty fun too, after cleaning up and all that, Walsh and Scharon stuck around to chill a bit, and we talked, good stuff. Later in the day Dave came over and we had a Jet game party, which was fun, lol. We made more of the dip!

Sunday night, well evening is more like it there was another party. This is how it went. 7 o'clock, Sheila, Kelly, Laena, Emily, and Jazmin showed up. We start drinking... ASAP! 8 o'clock, Dave arrives, he starts drinking. 9 o'clock, Jeff arrives.. he drinks like two and was done. Anyway, during that time very fun things happen like pong, foosball and some erotic dancing >=D Somewhere around 10 I guess (I totally lost track of everything at this point) Kait, Megan, Nick, Kevin, and Chris showed up. We all played games of this and that and listening to DJ Jazmin's music choices. It was really fun, though I wish I was a bit more sober so I could efficiently talk to some people. I kinda didn't so some things I wanted to, but it's aight. It was a really fun night. After the Sayville crew left (except for Dave), we had a big dance party, and it was really fun lol.
After all the ladies left, Jeff, Dave and I were talking in the kitchen, eating some dip. After a bit, I guess Dave got quite tired, because he brought a blanket in, and layed down on the kitchen floor while we talked, so Jeff and i decided it was time to go to sleep, lol. We got dave to go on the couch and went to sleep.

Monday was good too, I saw Coach Carter with Sheila, Sara, and Jackie Curtin. Good stuff, good times. We later went to the diner, of course, and I ate as much as I could, so I could be big like Gaston!

The End.

But hey, If I'm missing anything, let me know!

Wow.

Mon, 17 Jan 2005 22:09:00 GMT

This weekend was awesome. If you were there, you don't need me to tell you how fun it was :-)

Nice Night

Wed, 12 Jan 2005 20:12:09 GMT

I've been meaning to update this thing for a while, but I guess I always put it off for a later time, and always forget. Then eh, someone reminded me the other day that I should update, and ha, I actually remembered! (someone who cheated at UNO and didn't win, lol, well, by normal rules anyway :-) In light of the good news of my remembering to update, I shall write about fun things, and happy things, and well, I guess more of a normal "what I did today" kind of entry.

Last night was a lot of fun. I moved around the basement furniture and what not to accommodate more people, and I like how it is now. I got a really long table that used to be hidden in the corner, with tons of stuff covering it, and put it in front of the love seat, which is quite nice. Great place to put my computer/food/drinks/whatever. So I basically rearranged the basement yesterday and also worked on spackling the wall a bit. It's still recovering from Rob and me moving the TV project. It looks a lot better though, I think all I need to do is sand it and paint it again and it will look good. Anyway, back to last night. At eight o'clock Sheila, Kelly, Jazmin, Allison (from Binghamton) and her boyfriend, Chuck, came over and we watched The Ring followed soon after by American Wedding. It was a lot of fun, I think I was the only person who kept their eyes open during the Ring. Well, maybe Jazmin did, but she already saw it, so she doesn't count. Hrmm actually... Maybe Chuck and I were the only ones who didn't see it... hrmmm Sheila?... Eh, I don't know. It was fun though. The chick in the Ring is madd hotttt. w00t

Well, it was a nice night after all, it was nice seeing Allison again, and finally getting to meet Chuck. Hehe, we just have to watch out for the dangerous basement ceilings though. I'm still trying to think of how the basement can comfortable accommodate more people, but I have faith that I will figure something out.

Laterzzz

Unsure

Mon, 18 Oct 2004 00:14:19 GMT

THE ROAD NOT TAKEN
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I-
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
-Robert Frost

Been thinking about this poem a lot lately.

hrmmm

Mon, 13 Sep 2004 07:47:50 GMT

I haven't really written in here in a long while, perhaps even too long of a while. Summer was good I suppose, lots of parties, if that is what determines a good summer. College is good too, I suppose, even more parties, if that is what determines a good college experience. I like the summer because I met a lot of people, that was good, of course beginning with the reuniting of myself, and the old school friend, Chelsea. That was good. Finding people who have been somewhat "lost" to you for a long is very good. Although, I feel like there are many people who are "lost" to me, but not because I haven't seen them for a while, but more so because there is just something that drives us apart, like we aren't supposed to interact. College is very good to me, it is almost exactly what I anticipated, but nothing like what I had hoped for. I knew what it would be like, the freedom, the purpose, the people. Though, as always, I hoped to be in the right state of mind. I rarely get into the right state of mind, with the exception being late at night, when I am alone. Though, there are some people who I have shared this clarified moment with, but of course, they would never know it. I experience clarity less and less now, and when I do it is in shorter durations. I am trying desperately to hold onto it. Every time I think about it, I promise to hold onto it, and keep it burning strong, but before I know it, its gone, and everything is fuzzy. I'm not writing this for an outreach for help, but more so to clarify things for myself, so the next time i read this, I can realize and help understand what I am missing. I had a good talk with Jazmin last week about some things, that was good. I think what we were talking about partially has effect on my attitude and their drastic changes. I am somewhat bored here. It seems all everyone does is party, which seems so.. eh dry. Its boring to do the same thing all the time, therefore any type of variety makes things better. I feel bad for those who are dependant on the parties, as their only outlet away from the tediousness of work. It's over rated. Seems to me just to be a whole bunch of kids getting drunk on their new found freedom and independence. No pun intended. Their is no substance, nothing that will last in what is going on.

I haven't been true to myself. I promised myself and hoped for some things to happen, but of course, they did not. Of course there is still time, but I hate procrastinating in these matters. I know I shouldn't be doing it, and that there is absolutely no reason whatsoever to do so. I have no excuses, no clever evasions or pushing priorities. I did not think this was going to happen, and I hope it doesn't happen how it happened in the past, all the time that I wasted... Sure, eventually things get done, but it seems like a waste of time to not jump on the chances when you have them. Even small things, I have to think bigger, to work hard, to concentrate, and aim towards the completion. I have to initiate myself, and get things into gear, like I once had. No, you don't have any idea what I am talking about. The smallest things can have the biggest consequences, good and bad. Small things are what kill, and what create life. I have to do more of those small things. I simply can no longer just do one or two, and pretend to be content. I must go all out. When I do things, I would like to tell people that I do them to completion. I'd like to say I am devoted, am soul bound to the cause. I am getting there, I am on my way, but I still have not reached it. The things that irritate me, are really insignificant. They are simply a rouse for excuses that I give myself day by day. I wonder how many of those I go through per day, all the time that is wasted upon them. This is not only the things that irritate me, but also the things that are trivial, and unimportant that I make myself go through. Its easy to lose sight of what you want when you have distractions. I must remember that when taking things into consideration. I should have a hierarchy for myself, a ranking. That way, one thing on the same level doesn't conflict with another, so instead, everything will be leading toward one road.

There is a thick fog here every night. Tonight is not an exception. It is seemingly very nice. I see it every night from my window, yet I have never gone out in it, been absorbed by it. I want to; but not alone. Some things are meant to be experienced with another. It looks somewhat menacing from my window. Devouring the nearby basketball court and picnic bench. The other buildings are gone. I have that problem of seeing what I want, grabbing for it, but not reaching far enough. I don't give that extra push that is needed. That little bit of risk or danger, that uncertainty that just has to happen in all things. The boy that reaches out for the branch and grabs it, or the boy who doesn't reach far enough, and falls out of the tree. I miss the large branch, instead I get a handful of the little ones. The little branches support me well enough, however, they are unsteady. They aren't as strong and secure as the big branch.

It's 3:45, I will try to sleep again.

Evil Do'ers

Tue, 25 May 2004 22:53:34 GMT

Well I was watching the history of punishment or something liek that on the History Channel the other night. They were going through all the various punishments that have been given throughout the time, pretty much giving breif summaries of the most poular punishments of each era. When they were doing their segment on recent times and modern punishment, they had a little news peg that was from earlier this year, or maybe last year, I am uncertain, but it was that scenario where the American kid got Cane'd in Singapore.

Now when I first heard about this, as it was going on and how people were outraged I pretty much blew it off. i think there was other important things that I was more focused on at the time. Being that I am not preoccupied at the moment, I have a change to think about this. I do not think that the American being Cane'd is wrong at all. It is completely just. He was arrested for vandalism along with eight others. The crimes included spray painting cars, egging cars, kicking and denting car doors, breaking a car window with a brick, switching car license plates, and stealing public street signs. These are malicious acts. In my opinion, if you do not want to get flogged, don't commit the crime. I could understand if there was controversy if he was lets say jay walkinmg and he got flogged, but he was doing malicious acts with cruel intent. He was an American in a foreign country, and I am sure he did not know the laws, but that is no reason to commit such crimes.

I really can not understand why people do things that are obviously malicious. These people knew that what they were doing was wrong, there is no doubt about it, its not like they had no idea they would be in trouble if they were caught. I think that American society has brewed a new kind of generation that does thigns because they can, and they know how leanient the consequences are. You shouldn't commit crimes just because you can, or you think you won't get caught. My dad was telling me a story the other day about a CEO or something who was involved with questionable income. Some sort of dirty money, I forget the details, you might rememebr this story, if you do put it in a reply. But anyway, the guy gets caught, and the day or next day after he gets caught, he kills himself. Why, oh why would someone do something that they know is so horrible that if they get caught, they would decide to kill themselves.

Don't break the law with malice on your mind, or sly ignorance in thinking you can beat it. That goes for Natural Law and governmental.

Hot Chicks

Tue, 11 May 2004 01:35:11 GMT

Well, since I am lazy, and I don't feel like rewriting stuff, I am going to take an exerpt from a developmental website I am more or less working on. It's going to be a sort of group site, where a good deal of people can write on and discuss whatever they want. This is the link: https://caethaver2.ath.cx/hoolio/facade/ I don't particularly like how it looks.. at all. I do think the content is good, even though it is very meager at this point in time. If you think its a good idea, let me know, and I could have ya working on something! Anyway, down in a hole, reminding me to put the thing about Hot Chicks in here. Haha, anway, oh yes, this isn't everything I have to say about hot chicks, but I don't feel like getting into it now. And so, no furthur procrastination:

Hot Chicks (taken from my website, which I wrote at a previous date)
"Man oh man. Hot chicks. I have no idea how to express it, but a large part of this site is going to be devoted to the ladies that we all know and love. Girls are amazing in so many ways, and I believe that they don't know half of them. Its insanity how they could seduce us guys with a tenth of a second glance, or how the slightest turn of her head could drive us right up the wall.

I'm watching There's Something About Mary as I'm writing this, and that movie is so accurate. Hey guys and ladies, if you wanna see how much control women have on guys, watch the movie. Wow this movie really has the situation between men and women down pat. There have been so many situations where guys I know have killed their most intricate plans just for a chance to hang out with hot chicks. I admit, its an awesome power, amazingly cool thing, I mean, hell even on the recieving end, it feels great to be drawn to girls like that. It feels so right just to go with it and go after them, even if you try not to, so that you don't seem too willing... they always win in the end."

Hrmm, reading that now, I realized that it really doesnt have much meat to it... Oh well, You get the general idea I should hope. i shall make an in depth analysis another time. In the meanwhile, check out https://caethaver2.ath.cx/hoolio/facade for the story that goes with the exerpt

Mon, 03 May 2004 01:32:00 GMT

This weekend was kind of slow. Played some Halo on Friday, that was fun. Haha at least for everyone except Fisch. He had problems with losing and not playing seriously. Saturday was spent.. I don't know, hanging around. Got to go offroading for a little bit in the truck when I had to haul some plants into the backyard of the new house, twas fun. Later that night I watched SNL and Mad TV, which I haven't done in a while. That was nice too. Sunday.. Today rather I hung around and proceeded to see The Punisher with Jeff n' Neil. Great movie, some serious ass kicking was going on. Fun stuff, total action, it was great. It was a lot more realistic than a lot of the other crap that's out also. Though, I'm still not sure why he didn't die when he got shot in the chest.... oh well, voodoo doctor musta helped. Oh yeah, btw, this guy was a good level of jacked-ness. I want to be like that, he had the hairy Italian chest an the six pack, I mean, that's perfect for me. I'll give it till the summer to look like that!

I'll continue a bit on education now.
I was thinking.. actually a while ago, that even though I have been leaning towards the side of the argument that schooling is insignificant, I do think that there are ways to be smart about it. I have found that people often think their smart for not doing the work or what not because they believe how I discussed in my past entry, how schooling is illegitimate. I don't wholly agree.

I am just going to tell this how I see things. And try to stay objective.
I believe that many of the people who do their work are very insincere. They lack depth perception and don't put things into perspective. I have seen many of these people screw up with their priorities so bad, its funny. In their doing this, though they may be furthering their own lives, they can be effecting other people as well, not in a positive way. If people like this make a commitment, then don't do it because they see something else that would be better for them, they could ruin what they were committed to. An example, extreme maybe, plausible, yes:
Lets say a top notch student is talking with his friend on Monday and agrees to help his friend with cutting the grass on Thursday. A teacher tells the student on Thursday that he is having a big quiz on Friday. This student then proceeds to hurry home and studies all night for the quiz on Friday. He called his friend a little too late on Thursday night, and found out that his friend's dad beat his friend for not cutting the entire grass that night. Sucks don't it?

On the contrary, perhaps these people are correct. These people obviously know how the system works, so they work very hard to excel and be on top. They realize that if they do well now, it will open doors for them further down the line. As Darwin and Mr. Herbert Spencer said, survival of the fittest. These people do what they must to advance and do not care about the consequences they beam towards others.

-End of Schooling and why its pointless

Personal statement:
I myself believe that it is best to stay in the middle of the two. In my way, you can obtain decent grades and still be considerate towards others. I don't mind not getting the best grades and I am happy I don't get the worst. In the grand scheme of things, I think that your schooling career is a mix of both worlds, or should be, so that you can become a well rounded person. People who excel mightily in one area often lack substance in other areas. I also think this relates to religion in that while religions like Catholicism, you do things mainly for your neighbors to gain wealth, in other religions like Muslims you want self preservation and religious conservation. I think that these religions in their normal states are somewhat too intense or maybe not intense enough for me, and that perhaps a happy medium of them is the best way to go. I am talking about the basic jists of each and not the entire thing, as they are very similar in many ways. I believe that forgiving your neighbor as the Christians say, isn't always the best way to go, and neither is killing all the infidels. I do think that there can be some medium established there though that does make sense. You figure out what you want to do. Its all just food for thought.

Schooling and why it's pointless

Thu, 29 Apr 2004 03:07:46 GMT

Well, that last topic was pretty steamy. I think I am going to skip of The US government because that mostly got explained in WMD's and other fun toys and the comments therafter. I'm going to go ahead onto Schooling and why it's pointless.

Okay, so here comes schooling. In the primary levels and pre-primary, shooling is for young children to learn how to speak right and write their letters correctly and learn how to read and do math and all that fun stuff. This is also the first time where young kids (usually) are introduced to a very large number of other kids to interact with. Same goes for middle school. Freshman year of high school I'd say is the last year that you learn things in high school. I'm sure ina few years from now I will be able to write about college and thereafter, but right now my cap is high school senior. Okay, back to Freshman in highschool. Frosh don't really know or understand how thigns work yet, so they do their work admirably enough and do their homework at home, some don't, vast majority does. Freshmen year is not looked at by colleges, and neither is any of the years before. Sure you can say they do and all that nonsense, but I don't want to hear it. Sure they look at your cumulative average and all that, but the real money is at sophmore, junior and senior year.

Sophmore-Senior year are not for schooling. Oh and yes, there is a great degree of learning in school about things such as relationships, people, ideas, religion, drugs, and all that sort of thing - but all that aside I am talking about hard core book information. In sophmore-senior year you are tested on one thing and one thing alone in school, and that is, how you play along with the system. This is how they weed out people who will listen and obey for the rest of their lives and who will not. Its all a matter of who can follow instructions and who decides to go down a different path. I am not saying that either way is bad, very successful people have come from both paths. This is how they catagorize people, how they catagorize and divide. By 'they' of course I mean society in general, the people who hire employees and accept people into colleges. We go on this whole rigmarole in order to make it easier for the people who are makign the decisions. High school Physics, I'm never going to use it. The next person that says "When are we ever going to use this!" in class, I'm gonna scream at. We are NOT goign to use it, they know that, everyone knows that. What adults know now about physics (if anything) is from college and their profession. In college they teach you everything you neeed to know in order to be profficient in whatever feild you choose.

eh well, that shall be it for now, I'm getting crazy tired and probably not making any sense. I worked out my arms until they went numb today.

WMD's and other fun toys

Wed, 28 Apr 2004 02:05:11 GMT

Lets start first things first.
WMD = Weapons of Mass Destruction - now I think thats pretty self explanatory, but if you need help visualizing it, think about a lot of people dying, from one assault/one means. This could be biological, nuclear, chemical, whatever else.

I really don't like when people complain how the government lied to us and said they had proof of WMD's in Iraq and all that. I also really don't like that people say George Bush Jr. just went into Iraq to make daddy happy. Number one, the government didn't lie about anything. They saw Iraq as an imminent danger to our nation's security. They did break their armistice, shoot at United States and allied aircraft, and give safe haven to crooks. This country's leadership is corrupt! Even more than the US Gov't! In Iraq's breaking of the armistice, the only thing we could do was attack them, as they pose an immediate threat to the well being of our nation. Oh yeah, I forgot, if Iraq was such and imminent threat, where were all the mass attacks and the WMDs that we were supposed to find. Its not like we gave them MONTHS notice that we were going to come in. They had PLENTY of time to get rid of whatever they had going if anything. Now, number two, Bush Sr. had nothing to do with the invasion of Iraq. He didn't want Jr. to go in for fear of a drawn out war which would last a long time with many casualties. So don't come complaining that its all a ploy for Bush to be all macho in front of his dad.

Another thing I've noticed is that people disagree with the US in general for invading Iraq. This is nonsense! Iraq is a nation full of smugglers, drug dealers, rapists, and whatever other kind of thugs you can dig up. The place is teeming with them. I don't see how anyone can believe in doing what is right and not agree with going into Iraq. The leadership of the country was atrocious. Invaded the first time in the Gulf war because they were trying to oppress smaller nations(Kuwait) and for sins against humanity(slaughtering thousands of Kurds is a pretty big deal to me). I am talking about righteousness here! How can you say that you have righteous values and beliefs when all you do is SAY them and not ACT upon them! When you see someone struggling, you help them. When you see someone thirsty you give them a drink. When you see someone killing someone else, you stop them. You cannot believe in doing what is right, and what is NEEDED, and at the same time stand by when these bad things happen.

As a last note, for those of you who complain and whine about how Bush is stupid for this reason and that. Who cares, he is OUR President, and you know what, if you would have voted at not been to busy reading Liberal's Digest, maybe you would agree with what the majority of the nation wants. There is NO POINT WHATSOEVER to whine about such things, or how bad of an idea whatever was. That is not constructive at all. Put all that brain power toward thinking about what can be done to help and make a difference, so that we may continue to do what is right.

Theres WMDs and other fun toys.. minus the other fun toys and the WMDs... I hate when I get off topic.. oh well.

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Wed, 28 Apr 2004 00:24:41 GMT

Wow, totally nailed to the floor with work tonight. I thought that doing some stuff yesetrday would be a good idea, so I did, and then all of a sudden I get all this new crap. It's never fair I tell ye! Oh well, more mindless copying and bullshit essaying... NOthing challenging, just time consuming. Its too bad their arent any assignments where I would actually have to think. Oh wait, I'm lazy, so I like it when I don't have to think. But eh... a little thinking is better than a lot of copying. I feel like a copy machine. Copying formulas, plugging in whatever, taking information and rewriting it as an essay. Oh well, maybe I shall write something useful later.

Wow, time flies.

Tue, 27 Apr 2004 02:58:06 GMT

Well getting too late to write anything constructive, but points I would like to go into in the future, now that I feel like writing in here again:

-WMD's and other fun toys - Done

-The current US government - Done (for now)

-Schooling and why it's pointless - Done

-Hot Chicks - Not Done

-Ocarina of Time the Cult - Not Done

-MMORPG's and why they rule - Not Done

-Why we make fun of Jeff - Not Done

-Innocents aren't really innocent - Not Done

-Steam Rolling and how it should be done - Not Done

-Problems of other ethnicities - Not Done

This shall be continued.

This won't be a waste.

Tue, 23 Sep 2003 01:38:17 GMT

I got a new baby sister! Yeah, well A baby sister =) Her name is Liana Sarah Rose Segreto. I have no idea how she is goign to write that out on papers, kinda long =) She was born on September 21, 2003. Yeup, very exciting, she's real cute, I am gonna have to fend off all her boyfriends.. and steal their money. I'm kinda gettin flashes of happiness and depression here, this means i'm tired.

Sitting here, tired as hell, listening to music, thinking. I'm on the upstairs computer, using two of them actually, two out of the four computers within five feet of eachother. So needless. This is senior year, and I want it to be great. I was just thinking about colleges and such, and thinking, damn. I will probably not see most of the people that I hango ut on a daily basis with anymore once we all shipoff to college. No more cool pool parties, or pudding parties, no more driving crazy all aroudn the island, no trips. Well, not like they were in the past few years, not as adventurous, not as fresh, and new and exciting, not as well, things are never as good as the first time you do them. Usually anyway. Anyway, I am not going to let this year fly past me like the last four years. This year is goign to be amazing, and no one will ever forget it. I am going to kick it up a notch, and work hard at keeping things above the mediocre. This is going to happen both in school and out, so if you see me at anytime during the day or talk to me at anytime during the night, be prepared for some kickass times, because thats what I want to do, have kickass times! You will always be right here in my arms.

Yo, All the people say!

Wed, 17 Sep 2003 01:53:04 GMT

Today was a pretty good day I should say, even schway! JP recieved his long awaited airsoft deagle, and I finally fixed up my aps2 so its fucking great! Shooting stuff up in his backyard.. aweing at eachother saying, "That's going to hurt so much..." And Rob was there too. Me and Rob kept hiding from JP because he left us outside like three times and we hid form him, it was awesome. We did it like crazy. It ruled. We kicked ass, and me and Rob won, because we were hiding for a long time.. for many times. Even though we got the parts and JP his deagle, the UPS guy was late. And that made us mad.. well atleast before he came.. I mean.. That we were, mad, before.
This brings me to point number two. I had a basic social discussion with my cousin the otherday entailing the difference between what I see as a punk and his perception of a punk. its rather unfortunate that I didn't save the convo, because I wrote it in much detail that I don't specifically care to duplicate. In here I will just outline some basic principles. If you think there is a flaw in my reasoning, you may very well speak it, and I will prove you 100% wrong. >=D

A punk in my mind is someone who is rebellious and who physically expresses his views graphically and in an unorthodox way. I also believe that most punks, to truly feel the wave, have come from a difficult background, that thus thrown them into a place in society that was not accepted by most other people. Punks are the minority, not the majority. A punk is also someone who fights, both physically and mentally for what they believe in. They act sporadically and out of inbred hate that has formed within their family and friends through a difficult and painfull life. A punk also uses items and wears items out of necessity, not out of trend. Slashed, beaten, and broken clothes, ie. jeans are just what they wear because thats what happens to them after getting into brawls and what not. Punks also have a few pairs of clothes at most, and are most usually viewed with the same clothes on countless days in a row. These are dirty, gritty, hardcore, kickass people, that are in fact, quickly fading away because of their suffocation from all of the other facets of human life forms.

Then there is the other "punks". These are the people who hang out at the mall, and goto hot topic, and spike and mohawk their hair. Not out of demonstration or out of social misconduct, or even to make a statement or do something that has not been done before. They act out of repetition and self gain. they care nothing about government issues or rights, or even being different. These people are simple looking for attention in any way they can, and since they have a few friends that are already like this, they too become like their friends. Buying the same things, doing the same stuff, acting the same way, and feeling in the exact same manor. yes I am saying that all of these people are exactly the same. After a while you start to notice how every group of people are exactly the same, all of them, but I won't get to that now. Back to the fake punkers, these people are carpetbagers, trendoids, and pitiful excuses for people who solely look for recognition in their conformity to their own little social groups that gives short term, transparent glory, which is soon forgotten, or if they are so lucky, gets repeated five minutes later. Different people, same story.

If I missed anything, please reply or email me, I will be glad to take comments.

Oops

Fri, 12 Sep 2003 01:01:44 GMT

Yeah, I didn't really mean to update the profile just yet, I wasn't quite done. I mean, after more than eight months of inactivity, there has got to be more to tell, am I right or Right on! Haven't played guitar really in that time as well, just started playing again this past week. Playing a lot of Lost prophets, yet again. Also been having a good ol' time drawing. I have been doing it pretty consistently, at least once a day, especially in those really boring classes. ie. all of them. Yup this year is full of fun, and there are not too many classes in which I have good friends sitting next to me. I am also in the front of most of my classes, which brings the fun level way down. I shall figure out something to do though, but I think it will most likely piss off the people that sit around me. Over the summer, I constantly hung out with Rob, JP, and Jeff, it was pretty nice. We had some good times including a nice Mud/Pool/BBQ party at JP's and a pudding wrestling party at Jeff's place. Both were good times, and were contemplating when we can have our next party. Money is a factor. And of course have been ever so talkative with Rob and Sara online. Two totally awesome people whome I haven't mentioned enough in here. This shout out goes to you! In other news, I think I can look back on the summer with a smile. Got a lot done, not everything that I had planned, but I did get a lot done, and I am proud of that. Still working on the six pack, but that will eventually come. Been thinking about making some kind of satire site, I don't know. Thinking a lot about it in my Journalism class. There are some major hotties in that class! Damn, ladies if ya read this, be proud! I think there are more girls than guys in that class, very good. Though, I sit in the usual crap spot right in the front, probably the only seat that has a guy on the side and back! Yup and speaking of hot girls, I got a great smile today from an amazing girl. Though I don't know her name... I was making faces at her in class, and a sexy smile just appeared. It was very schway, even though I think she has a boyfriend, haha. I also took my first typing test since frosh year yesterday. Copying something I can accurately type around 40 or so words per minute. If I am writing off the top of my head and my own topics and have a clear thought, I can type up to around 85 wpm. I think thats pretty good. I passed out of my typing class frosh year with something like 31 or 32 wpm. So I am happy I have gotten better, though I still seek to go faster so I will be using my typing program more often and get used to touch typing instead of my usual frequent habit of glancing down. Well I think that shall conclude the entry, I guess if I feel like there is a need to write anymore at the moment I will just make another entry. Until then-